"sepehr, you are talking theories of philosophy, i am talking actual physics

interestingly a corollary of david deutsche's open and closed/unread messages on time like curves changing history is that open messages in the present also change the future, which we know to be true from our experience

however you can take the view that the future is somewhat fixed in a similar nature to the past which implies that if the world is too open to messages in the present that life and our world as we know it would become extraordinarily unstable . . 

historically the open message that religion is bullshit had as a direct consequence the murderous soviet and chinese communist regimes since religion has always acted as a socializing break on the usual human genocidal tendencies, the message was too powerful and actually distorted since usually religion does carry at its heart some sense . . 

so the fact that you don't seem to take a word of what i write in my 
"open messages" is part of the the boundary condition of a sort of "metaphysics" maintaining the stability of the world

so of necessity people cannot really take on board what i say and in fact what i say being taken on board must leak out of the future in a limited way, similar to how i take on board the great the minds and writings of the past . .

there are physics of reality that do not permit people to understand the mysticism i talk about ! 

i have no experience with pea protein isolate, could be ok or mightn't be, if you use for a while let us know how it turns out !"



one of the first conversations i had with andrew, deleted my replies because i was embarrassed
another
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Andrew: 

"the light of the lightning flash

reveals

you

and

the

thunder rolls for

the

rest

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yourlife

time

i'm starting to get interested in programming, a lady on reddit let me know that Elixir/Phoenix is really blowing up
Andrew recommended a blog post from the creator of the Phoenix language, i ended up finding a phoenix chat where the writer was online
me: hey, can i learn to code with elixir/phoenix as a completely new programmer ?
chris: Jason____ yes
me: hey chris i just read one of your articles on little lines !

 could you expand on how i should go about learning phoenix ? really i'm completely new to this game

chris: their will be less content for absolute beginners, but lots of things suggest a functional language is easier to learn for someone completely new to programming
You'll want to start small into Elixir first,  and get your feet wet their. I would start with the getting started guides at elixir-lang.org http://elixir-lang.org/getting-started/introduction.html
I gave a workshop geared to ruby folks, but it might also be a gentle intro for youhttp://www.chrismccord.com/blog/2014/05/27/all-aboard-the-elixir-express/
from there pragprog's Programming Elixir is a good start. Once things start to click for you, then I would head over to phoenixframework.org and start the guides there
it will take some tinkering/playing/frustration to internalize a lot of things, so hang in there :)
me: thanx dude :o)







i can't stand anyone being better than me





" the free soul is rare, but you know it when you see it - basically because you feel good, very good, when you are near or with them "
Charles Bukowski

i feel like there are a lot of posers in this world, it really gets me confused

my last boss was in a rage one day, i walked in a bit late and he screamed "you are an actor and a pretender !"
it bothered me for a while, because i thought he might've been right, recently i figured that the pretender was really him !
quit the same day




dad doesn't want to have christmas at our house, he says he doesn't feel comfortable. if it's not here though, the family won't be together for christmas, and i don't have anywhere to go. i really worry he might have symptoms of alzheimer's, it runs in the family





americans can list off actors/actresses, facts about them and go on and on
but they can't say anything meaningful about themselves !






saw a picture on facebook of my ex with some guy, she doesn't seem to be so into him, but even after 3 years i felt a hint of jealousy
i'm very prone to jealousy, at least i was





i do want to live in the country, and being in real estate could afford me that, but will i make enough money ? will i struggle too much, work until very old age ?
i could do programming, it would be a lot of work, but at least i'd be making decent money
maybe i could program for a couple years, get some sort of base, then try out real estate






what's the difference between being alone and solitude ?
what's the difference of being alone and solitude ?
what's the difference between solitude and being alone ?
i asked andrew, he didn't answer
for me to figure out ?
andrew: neither of them are words i use, i might say "i live by myself", but 'solitude' or 'being alone' are not things i feel !







alone my whole life
rough water
smooth water

alone my whole life
smooth water
rough water




i liked the poem i wrote "standing on a thousand foot cliff", it came to me seemingly out of no where, i did have some harsh words said to me by my father. difficulty builds a person ?





never really thought myself seriously suicidal, but the amount of times i've imagined deadly things happening to myself contradicts that






definitely attracted to damaged women more than the average, always been physically pulled to them
in my teens i played social online games, i would chat with these girls who had lots of problems, i never really saw the problems as too serious, these girls always interested me
i've lost contact to most of them, the ones i liked most
even when everyone says a woman is gorgeous, i'm not interested if she's not got soul





copying andrew's style too much, i'll be happier when my own really starts to show
for now i'm happy that i have the literary genius of andrew to guide me

no need to be scared of ghosts or monsters, what's really scary is people