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Sunday, July 24, 2016



do the pros outweigh the cons in regards to living ?


i don't know




















" that microbiome stuff, it's just people trying to sell you something ! "





that's schizophrenic thinking !


( a vegan trying to 'convert' people )





















portugaportugal
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[–]to portuga sent 
do you live there ? my parents are from the northern town of montalegre, in fact my dad is there now
[–]from portuga sent 
Yeah, I do, near Porto. Montalegre is a beautiful town, have you visited? I get the sense you live abroad
[–]to portuga sent 
i'm from the u.s., just moved from New York to Massachusetts, both states have a lot of Portuguese people
yeah I used to visit almost every year until i was 13 l, haven't been there since
tickets to Porto are actually very cheap from JFK right now, $650
my dad is actually building a house in montalegre right now with a view of the castle !
[–]from portuga sent 
So your parents were born here but moved to the US? That's cool, great opportunity for you, we're just a notch up from 3rd world. But I get it you have the genes :) you'll enjoy your retirement here (and you'll be lucky)
[–]to portuga sent 
well my dad will enjoy his retirement there ! yeah things are quite different there in portugal, especially rurally like in montalegre
my portuguese is actually very poor, my spanish is better, how did you get your english to be so good ?
[–]from portuga sent 
Don't worry, your genes will kick in once you move to portugal :) But no rush.. As for my english, we didn't have money to dub all the english movies we saw, only for subtitles, so that maybe explains a lot. But I've always read a lot of english books, from a young age, and interacted with a lot of english people. I make lots of mistakes, though, and learn new things on a regular basis
[–]to portuga sent 
very cool ! will contact you if i visit portugal if that's all right !


















" what do you write about ? "



thought you'd ask that

what ever i want really




















what you write is your creation








sanely insane
insanely sane
andrew's  comment
 intensely unsane !







sanely insane

insanely sane




















" we've been watching you, you're like the leader of all your friends ? "


no, that's not me





















i've been saving images, pictures or paintings, to my ' pictures ' folder

i set my screensaver to run my pictures folder, so now it's like have a personal art gallery






















[–]zaddar1 [+97]7th patriarch[F] 1 point  

what zen is about frightens people, its really something on nothing, but nothing is what it is really about !

so people spend their time weaving something to cover the imagined emptiness of nothing !

[–]ewk [-6] 1 point  
Mental health problems don't frighten me.
I encourage you to consult a mental health professional about your religious experiences and online conduct.




















andrew:

entertainment is a drug, you go into it and never come out again



me:

it's too true, i've been stuck watching these crap youtube videos for at least a month now

i'd be so much better off reading

well it's better to watch than to play the game i suppose





























  1. i was thinking about opening a meditative center and wanted to see what you think about that, if it was something you might want to get involved in


    and sometimes i have a question to ask you and don't know where i can
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  2. I think meditating in one's house or natural scenery is better -- there's no need to get communal about it if there's no significant money involved.

    You can ask me questions here.
  3. even if it's not significant money, it beats working in a warehouse, and for me a farm



    Tassajara rakes in money ! some teachers, like Lisa cairns, do as well
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  4. jason, i read one of the teachers at tassajara made a substantial donation to keep the place going, it actually ran out food because it had no money to pay for groceries

    lisa cairns's payoff will come when she marries some idiot wealthy devotee, otherwise she just scrapes by i think!

    its not like the old days, i really don't see any of them making much, jeff foster might be doing the best, but jesus he looks fatigued !

    there's a million housewives setting up "non duality" shops, the markets flooded and with all those husbands supporting their nonsense its too competitive !
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  6. Jason, best to keep spiritual matters & business separate:

    https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/d/d8/1610_Cecco_del_Caravaggio_Christ_expulses_money_changers_anagoria.JPG

    ... lest we sully the spirit with the mud of the worldly

    The business world functions differently: everything has to be efficient, calculated, optimized, anticipated, filed, recorded ... and one has to strive towards more profit. This is the Way of profit-making

    The Way of the spirit, as I see it, involves more meaningless, aimless roaming, wandering, experimenting, and also involves a lot of... wasteful? especially wasting time and also resources

    So it seems they're 2 entirely different logic of life involved, one borders on the illogical?

    That's why the monastery institution was useful perhaps, but it's impossible today, especially in the West.

    I think it's best to learn a marketable skill like programming, work from home, and if you want, devote the rest of the day to completely unburdened pursuit of truth?

    In this way you don't have to worry if the people coming to your center are donating or not

    And then one donates more than others, and will you devote more time to him? Or he will go away? And then you need to show impartiality but at the same time you need to devote a little more time to the guy donating the money otherwise he'll leave and your center will die?

    That kind of stuff ... do you really want to deal with all that?
  7. (Also, I think we only need to endure for 10 more years before Western countries will start implementing a guaranteed basic income for all policy. Then you won't have to work to survive. This is not some wishful thinking, it's just what will happen. Thousands are out of a job in China every day as China moves to fully automatized, robotized factories. There's a Fourth Industrial Revolution incoming. Driverless trucks are here - millions of truck drivers will lose jobs soon. Where will they go? Look at this : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tf7IEVTDjng --- I say in 10 to 15 years, unemployment will reach such levels that a guaranteed basic income for all will be an absolute necessity. Everybody is already discussing it, and Silicon Valley is pushing for it.)
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  10. "unemployment will reach such levels that a guaranteed basic income for all will be an absolute necessity."

    No, what will happen is a lot of people will die, trying to make ends meet, in an increasingly hypercompetitive society. Society will become more hypercompetitive, as the job market's demands change, in order to compensate for technological unemployment.

    There is a possibility smaller countries with more tight-knit communities will apply guaranteed basic income, but the USA's elite do not care about the well-being of their people.
  11. boston dynamics has been doing cool stuff for a while now

    i haven't read much on universal basic income, i'd welcome it from what i do know !

    i see problems in every career i choose, there's just sometimes better options, like in programming i probably wouldn't be happy, but with a center it's something i could be happy with just there wouldn't be much money, if any

    i'd be okay being in lisa cairns shoes, traveling, enough money to feel somewhat comfortable, better than where i'm at !
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andrew:

your preference for toxic, highly autistic females is the/ one of the most disturbing things about you !

me:

i don't know, i find them interesting

maybe i haven't met a high quality woman ?













so my friend from my home town just had a nose job done, she's 21

i was sort of shocked when i heard, every one seems pretty accepting of it

i thought my nose was too big for a while, but i got over it !
























concussions are scary really !
























edvard munch ' despair '

painted a year before ' scream ' !

it was interesting how he'd have multiple versions of paintings, this one has a separate title name to scream though ! 























[–]to  sent 
hi,
i read that you live in El Salvador on r/zen, that's pretty cool ! i'm currently in Massachusetts, USA myself but one of my goals is to travel to south/Central America
how did you end up there ?
are diseases like chagas and Zika a daily concern to you ?
do you work there or are you living from saved money ?
yeah i speak some Spanish and i think i'd like to do something similar to what you're doing one day !
[–]from  sent 
Hi, thanks for the message.
To answer your question, I ended up here because I wanted to travel and flights were cheap to San Salvador. I wasn't actually planning to stay in El Salvador but met a girl on the beach and she took me back to her village in the mountains.
Zika isn't on the radar for me, or any other diseases or issues. Although my perspective of life is different than most, and I don't have any concerns. However, speaking pragmatically, all the travelers that come through here, the most they get is stomach sick. I've been stomach sick myself a few times, it's common when traveling to poorer countries with less strict health standards, and there's medicine for it an it usually goes away in a few days.
Again, I wasn't planning to "work" but it sort of happened that way. Although what I'm doing is more similar to workaway.info I hangout in a hostel a few days a week in exchange for free accommodation and good. Most people wouldn't need to, but I was relatively poor when I started traveling with only $2600 save up for 4 months, and I've extended the trip another 4 so decided to do this so I wouldn't dip into the red too much. You can get by here quite cheaply though. I'm eating quite well (cheeses, chicken breast, yogurt , etc.) for under $10 a day. Locals here make between $8-10 for a days work.
If you have some money saved up it's a great place to come hangout. So beautiful, and highly underrated.
Anymore questions, feel free to ask.
Cuidate
[–]to  sent 
may i ask what area you're located in ?
and what age you're around ?
what do you do at the hostel ? do you also live somewhere else ? do you have internet at both locations if that's the case ?
[–]to  sent 
are you american ? are there other americans around where you live ?
[–]from  sent 
I'm a 33 year old Canadian. As for westerners, I'm friends with a Brit, some Finish girls, another Canadian and an American girl in my town. I live on the Ruta De Las Floras. https://www.lonelyplanet.com/el-salvador/western-el-salvador/ruta-de-las-flores

At the hostel I mainly just hangout, and check guests in and am there to answer questions about tours, etc. I have friends that stop by during the day to play backgammon or have some coffee. It's really chill. There's always a steady stream of backpackers to hangout with too. For example, spent time with a girl from Seattle for a few days last week, and went to waterfalls nearby with some New Zealanders on the weekend.
I don't live at the hostel, I live in a house. Internet is abundant here. They also offer relatively inexpensive wireless pay as you go.
Volunteer hours with workaway.info is about 20 hours a week. It depends on where and what you're doing. It also varies the quality of accommodation and amount of food. Here, I don't get much food other than what's left at the hostel when guests check out, but I get everything to do with household expenses covered. I've had other gigs, like in the Canary Islands, where I lived on a large finca that was used to host airbnb style travelers and meditation retreats. I had my own apartment there, all meals were provided free (including many meals in restuarants), and was given €250 a month, and just did some yard work for a few hours in the morning on weekdays. Of course lot all volunteer positions will be that level of awesome, but there are a tonne on there with a spiritual/living in nature slant to them.
[–]to  sent 
thanx for being open about your living situation
it sounds very nice, and i might be tempted to move there if i didn't have a good set up over here ! i do plan on moving to new mexico one day, and hopefully doing some travelling in new zealand and south america




















i am silent

the various bugs make their calls








andrew:


red flags in the evaluation of a relationship partner are
health problems
any addiction history, alcohol or pot or otherwise
addiction problems can be very disguised, similarly for health problems
promiscuity
deceit !!!!
i might add by the way, ancedotally and from reading r/askdocs is the level of concealment of stdʼs and plain dishonesty on the subject is beyond belief !
you can learn a lot from facebook and their web presence, just keep scrolling for all the info you can glean !
what sort of friends on facebook do they have, are they the usual copy and paste rah rah or sickly sentimental flakes ?
my god the mentality of these people makes one puke !
the web is so selective for total hubric arseholes, one needs to be s o o  careful !
anyway if the potential relationshipee has a web presence and facebook can be enough, you see quite a bit of their character and the failings will jump out at you, the only problem is you  “ need to believe ”  what you see, something the male mind is not very good at when it comes to women !
because modern social norms constantly place us in the company of people who we know nothing of their background, one has to move very slowly to build up this knowledge, everyone is a past master of concealing their flaws !





















when i write something on reddit zen, or publicly, i have this urge to delete it right away

i don't want to deal with the barrage of idiots, if they show up























andrew :





the way of the female
is to lay in wait
for
the
male
a trap
sheʼs not conscious of it
the maleʼs brain is ready to enwrapt itself !
the maleʼs brain is ready to enwrapt/capture itself !
the maleʼs brain ensnares/snares itself !
the maleʼs brain snares/ensnares itself !

here things are tough but

they're mostly always tough.

basically I'm just trying to get along

with the female, when you

first meet them their eyes

are all moist with under-

standing; laughter abounds

like sand fleas. then, Je-

sus, time tinkles on and

things leak. they

start BOOMING out DEMANDS.

and, actually, what they

demand is basically contrary to what-

ever you are or could be.

what's so strange is the sudden

knowledge that they've never

read anything you've writ-

ten, not really read it at

all. or worse, if they have,
they've come to SAVE
you! which means mainly
wanting you to act like everybody
else and be just like them
and their friends. mean-
while they've sucked
you up and wound you up
in a million webs, and
being somewhat of a
feeling person you can't
help but remember their
good side or the side
that at first seemed to be good.

and so you find yourself

alone in your

bedroom grabbing your

gut and saying, o, shit

no, not again.

we should have known.

maybe we wanted cotton

candy luck. maybe we

believed. what trash.

we believed like dogs

believe.




















had a brownie, almost instant degregation in thinking !
















" you're an asshole "



yeah ?












[–]to zaddar1 [+94] sent 
stds really are a problem with my generation, i've had opportunities with h. types but never went too far because std was in the back of my mind
i feel a lot better speaking my mind to her

 this girl tried to sleep with me and when i didn't she admitted the following days that she was considering having a std !

















I don't know who the fuck you are
me neither !














" i was observing you, you have no emotion "

when we were laughing as we walked into cvs, when we were laughing reading poetry, and when i lightly brushed your toes, that was emotion too

 i admit though, i could show some more emotion
















i'm not sure why i singled out such a damaged woman

schizophrenia is a real thing and so is std !















" are you psychic ? "


jus observant really








there's no way one person can be better than another, we are all incomparable because we are all our own worlds separated by infinite space













life isn't as glamorous as we might want it to be














" know not a person by what they tell you, but by what they don't tell you ! "










andrew:


the real is not the ultimate  !
the imaginary is the ultimate  !
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Sunday, June 26, 2016



when you're strong

doubt

when you're weak

doubt






















it's all recurring bullshit !






















do you have anything to say ? or is it just a bigger mistake ? considering it's all a mistake























BCD is helping my overall health very much so, it shows while i'm playing soccer as i'm running all over the field and hardly get winded ! also thinking better which leads to better plays











i'm making progress, but i'm a man unchanged !













[–]to zaddar1 [+94] sent 
i brought my brother and sister in law to meet dave and his girlfriend to see dave's property, he has foundation down to build a new house there and i'd like to help him with that process so i could learn something
anyway my sister in law was saying how my father is handy and how my brother and i aren't, well i pointed out that my father has 40 years of experience over me and i use the same logic when i ask you questions because i figure you have at least 35 years of experience over me, even real experience of zen


[–]from zaddar1 [+94] sent 
some people learn their entire lives, most don't
however you are definitely an "intellectual" type person, you will always be able to see things that are utterly beyond others !
everything is just an ever changing view
with zen there appear to be two quite different modes, those who copy and proxy and those who integrate it into their lives . .




















sometimes i wish there were more time in a day













linda bukowski interview, where she is asked if she thinks charles was happy with the way his life turned out

LB: He was happy the way his life turned out. He was. Because he opened up all the doors and windows of his house. He opened up not the front, only the front, the back, the side. He opened up the attic, he, you know, went into the crawl spaces. He hung out in all these places, and he breathed it in, the dust from all those rooms. And he was able to breathe it out again on paper. And he had to keep doing that. That was his life breath. That's what came from him. And that's what he breathed in and out.
































the stupid gather and the smart stay home !
















what's worse, talking about guns or zombies ?














two golden horses, one stationery and one flying up into the sky















if someone calls them self crazy, believe them
















why should i imagine ?

even if it will never be true










it's tough to do the right thing when you have nothing to do the right thing for














[–]from zaddar1 [+94] sent 
you will always be on the edge of survival, to support the existance of another imperils your own




































i've been attracted to these damaged sort of girls for so long
i was like 12 and i met this girl who was 16 or 17 and she would call me at night
we would talk about sex, w.e
girl was messed up
so was i




















' most people don't realize how much energy is wasted on talking '













what i was holding myself back from saying

" why are you trying to bother me ? "















i feel better when i'm reading quality stuff, like the recent postings on the 7th zen patriarch blog about dante's 'inferno' and khalil gibran and his writings





















i am a broken puzzle piece that will never fit into the communal paradigm !

reading






had some good yogurt this morning from sidehill farm, the yogurt was almost yellow, their jams are good too besides the extra sugar they add in


























met two other artists this last weekend at a 4th of july family/friends barbeque

well, they're okay, they put on a good show, thy didn't really use slang at the party like they do in their rap

i told one of them i wrote after he told me about his rap group and i warned him that i only write crazy shit, he didn't ask how he could read any of it, my sister in law did though !

one of the rap artists started yelling out trivia questions during dinner and singing patriotic songs















you tell people, they don't want to know











walking out of the pizzeria i came up with the poem, i repeated it a couple of times but didn't write it down, a year and a half later i'm still beating myself up over it



















i didn't think i was making much progress with my health, but when i went to long island for the weekend and i saw myself in my old mirror, there really was a difference from before !
















i think charles bukowski and i have a lot in common, even stomach problems


















i'm ' howl at the world ' mad


















' jason masters zen '

well, doesn't feel too different to put words to it, it doesn't stop here though !



















am on long island for the weekend, feeling a bit depressed ?

any way, ever since zakaj and andrew criticized sepehr for his projections into his cats i've noticed that my dogs here on long island don't have as much personality as i previously thought they did

to say cats have a larger scope than humans is insane



















personally, i think im sorta shit, but comparatively ...










an old friend of mine was joking on her snapchat story that how her friend felt at work was "wanting a husband"

that's sorta disgusting really










haven't noticed the sunset, too busy staring at the computer screen or the ceiling




andrew's
c o m m e n t
how difficult can zen be ?  jason just follows lines of inquiry in a certain direction and develops from there . .
and then thereʼs reddit zen, so much wrong minded energy ! : o)
it only takes one person to really disagree with you and all your energy goes into futilely arguing with them, i think thatʼs why its so important that the 7th zen patriarch blog is basically friendly !














 lana del rey singing ' cherry blossoms ' to her instagram fans















hours behind a screen, i hope i'm gaining something












a wide brimmed hat manages to keep a lot of flying insects away from your head !
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