andrew :

Yuefeng took off his sandal and hit ewk on the head with it

ewk being rotund and greasy, rolled away !

Yuefeng called after him ,  “ You stupid arsehole ! ”

 ewk winced and a visible shudder went through that fat blab of rolling pork ! !























i think sepehr has been making more sense to me, maybe all that writing he's done has attributed to that


i have to agree with andrew, it's a post well written

















i don't know where people go when they die, to me it's like they're not even gone















there's hardly such a thing as rush hour in the country !
















this movie about dogen had its interesting parts, like the interpretation of his visions, i'm not sure how historically accurate the movie is as i haven't read much about dogen's life

i'm thinking of starting to bike to work, it's about a 30 minute bike ride, there's also a tai chi class a couple of towns over.. i might try it out but i don't think i'd stick with it

i havent been meditating as much as i'd like to, i'm not sure why, i did have a pleasant time outside last night so i think i'll be doing that more often

i've caught two ticks on my skin so far that hadn't bitten, you can feel them crawling around but i still do checks when i remember to

the clouds drifted by as the yellow moon rose over the trees

















david foster wallace actually has a lot of fire in his voice during his speech to kenyon college, i actually read it the first time and listening to it is different




















krill oil vs fish oil video

the fact that krill oil has astaxanthin seems to be a stressed point



















the good thing about couchsurfing is that it's free, the bad is that you're basically forced to hang out with these people















louis theroux documentary on medicated children

not once in the documentary is changing diet an idea, nor taking something less strong like supplementation, nope just use less medication

concerning hugh, it used to bother me when my parents would speak about me with their friends, but people like to talk so




just remembering when i told the doctor i don't like school and he recommended i go on adderall

LOL


















" you don't talk very much, why's that ? "

i don't have much to say

and what i do want to say would hurt your feelings or you wouldn't understand


















" asking about my prescriptions, that's not how you make friends, that's how you make enemies "


good insight to how people feel about talking about their prescriptions

[–]Dogonapillow 1 point 4 minutes ago 

i remember at Tassajara there was this guy who would go into the woods and smoke pot while there, I thought he was definitely wasting his time and just continuing down the same stupid road

i was outside sitting on a rock, bright night with the full moon, when a coyote about 50 yards right on the tree line started barking, could've been the same one to have eaten the baby goats

i thought i heard it thumping around but it was only my heartbeat
















yogurt turned out to be very tasty and fresh, might've left it out too long leaving it sort of clumpy and watery but it's very good

had a yogurt called siggi's the other day, they use a lot of cream and it was also very good !













chaga's disease, scary stuff, and moving into the u.s. !





















sepehr i can understand how you have a hard time finding time to meditate, with a house you have to pay for and a wife you have to pay attention to !

your stocking job sounds depressing, i'm having a pretty good time working on a farm maybe you could try to find something like that, it is tiring being out in the sun all day, i got a sunburn working on the garden





















well i guess i called andrew returning to r/zen before he could admit it ! maybe that means i'll make a return to a zen center or two

not sure i want to get involved on r/zen again
























women can change men, even their physical health















even though i've put on weight since i got to Massachusetts, my face feels less swollen














i was thinking the other day that a lot of people on r/zen are very passive aggressive


now i just skip the passive if i have to be aggressive

' cardinal ' by maxfield parrish

castrated some piglets this morning, had four testicles after and definitely felt a testosterone increase later on

could be trouble, i was about to start wishing for a woman





















the back fat I used for lard came with some skin on it, I left it on while it was cooking and separated after and was debating whether or not to throw it away by tasting it, it's very good and it reminded me that my parents used to make a refuse gelatin stew that was probably common growing up in poverty in Portugal



here it is, it's called feijoada transmontana, origins in northern portugal where my ancestors are from, this is just one variant and i think it basically went whatever you had went into the stew (pictures)

transmontanos are what the people of the region are called ! i can only partly understand what these people are saying, which is the way it's always been for me !

photo montage of the region














no work, no prize !















just got some homemade lard soap, planning on making some lard, yogurt, and cheese myself !

seems like people tend to be healthier here, no mcdonalds within 30 minutes !














wow, i wasn't sure it was going to happen, but the return of andrew to r/zen !

hm, does that mean i'll be back to wasting my time there, or maybe i'll be productive by returning ?


















when i was in portugal some time maybe 10 years ago a very skinny dog came walking by my grandmother's home, which is a bit odd because it's not near any other homes besides my godparent's

i went to the fridge as he was sitting at the bottom of the stairs, i gave him as much as i thought i could without getting in trouble, i went inside but i expected him to come back the next days but he never did












" i'm IT !!!! "


read nikolai gogol next ?












“I hadn't known there were so many idiots in the world until I started using the Internet.” 
― Stanisław Lem


ptsd is right when it comes to posting on reddit or elsewhere, i'm reserved about posting because it almost hurts to post









jonathan bergeron fun artist














interview with stanislaw lem, it's interesting how people are always trying to put labels on writers, like what the fuck does it matter ?















reading goethe he mentioned hearing improperia and miserere (2), how wonderful that must have been


















andrew:

i couldn't write that on reddit zen, i'd be hounded or otherwise censored

reddit zen sort of filters out any sense and all that bickering they have and complain about, well its all they really permit, the stupids !

me:

i feel like i'm a step above of what he's talking about

i was somewhat upset when you shot down my monastic dreams, back in the reddit zen days

i guess there's no real conversation on reddit zen

i was actually thinking about going into neuroscience when i was in college, it would've never gone through for me

one of my favorite soccer platers cristiano ronaldo will be having a child with a surrogate mother

i watched his documentary, it seems like his son does not want to play soccer and that must upset ronaldo very much and might be why he's having another kid













another leonard cohen interview















good first day of work nice to be outside and working with animals, also learning skills i'll most likely use one day

only complaint i have is that i was hammering staples in an old barn and i most definitely got lead paint in my eyes and ears, even my regular prescription glasses would've been a help but i lost them the other day on a bike ride, took a germanium once i got home !













i've had trouble reading translations and only with my current reading of goethe's "italian journey" do i see the translator showing himself
















we had some syrian neighbors that were coming by as they were getting involved in soccer and my brother has a big role in the town's soccer program

they came by one day distraught, it was when things were really heating up in syria and they were worried about their family there, i don't think we saw them much after that

they were sad i was sad it was very sad














andrew:

"thereʼs an old zen saying “ theoretically the point of a needle canʼt get past the border, in practice horses and coach drive through ”

thereʼs sort of an analogish situtation in physics and astrophysics , “singularity” is in fact a philosophical idea that does not represent physical reality, its simply a situation where the theory is inadequate, but the fact a situation exists implies there is some make up of horses and coaches that drive through !

the mistake of the likes of ewk and buji zen is to suppose the truth of the first part of that old zen saying and because they are not enlightened and have never done any real zen work, they imagine the 2nd part to be nonsense ! : o)(

the hard part to get is that these lazy blightened morons are the norm of life ! :o(

of course the other side of the coin is that the religious zen and buddhism build fake horses and coaches that just sit on blocks and donʼt go anywhere, easy meat for buji zen to point out !

the real horses and coaches are reviled by both sides of course ! : o ) "

 me:

awesome ! i don't think i would have understood the original saying without the explanation

maybe the people who have the coach and horse think " why tire and feed the horse when i can sit pompously and show off to others ? "

goethe on his " Italian Journey "

last sentences of his first paragraph

i used the bathroom in the early morning the other day, probably around 4 am, i used one of the hall lights that was bright and when i got back into my hammock to go to sleep i was unable to for at least an hour, the light definitely woke me up












went outside tonight, sat on a chair, walked around, saw the pigs

it was nice, and the full moon gave a good introduction, it's really quite bright out, now i guess it's putting the extra hour or two in














andrew :

"guffawing and gaggling fools remain creepy monsters in the pond contaminating any reflection of the moon in its brown excrement laden waters . ."


well written

making a comeback to reddit zen ?

went on a run when i first got here and felt like i was going to hurl, was very tired after my first bike ride too

now going through my second run and bike ride it's crazy how much easier they were on me, maybe the tyromax helped ? not sure if i'm taking too much yet, my head has felt a little bit spacey but my diet hasn't been too great either