i think it's saved me from being arrested several times !
basically if you've done something wrong you shouldn't straight up admit it to the officer
the fact that you can't post the word retard or autism on r/zen shows where the subreddit is at
put it on the page
and leave it there
there really are so many drug addled online ..
" While the definition of autism spectrum disorders (ASD) has changed over the years, one thing has remained relatively constant: the fact that rates of ASD are anywhere from two to five times higher among boys than they are among girls. "
she was one of the best philosophical minds of our time : o (
retards and assholes
that's what i have to deal with
lonely days, rainy days, lazy days
what a depressive autistic has to deal with
dealing with people through the internet can be " heady " as there's no connection to reality, even the body looking at the screen can disappear !
james was saying how he's dealt with people like brittany who will ignore you to get you more attracted, how it will seem like the time you spend with them is special and later on when you leave then they will get in contact with you and say they haven't heard from you in a while
he was wondering if i'd like to spend time on someone like that, well i am like that too .. consciously or unconsciously i keep to myself and don't reach out to others too often
women will do whatever it takes to have a baby i guess !
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i find that i can find out a lot more about a person through their writing than meeting them in real life
a bit of a magic show using mathematical algorithms, drone and video technology !
birds chirping, taunting spring !
ice poseidon gets scammed trying to get into the golden globes
if nothing happens, i win
if something happens . . i'd like to say i win
i fall in love too easily
people like to put their fingers in their ears when they hear something they don't like !
i told kbubblez last night that pot is a drug and it causes brain damage, she said to me " you're stupid if you believe that ! '
i saw some guys playing small sided soccer in the next field so i drove over, when i got there i was in my boots and jeans and i asked if they needed another player, who i asked definitely thought i was crazy and didn't realize i had a change of shoes
he said " next sunday be here at 10, don't forget ! " so i said okay i won't
they were an interesting group of people who were battling it out, small sides means i won't head the ball but these guys seemed pretty rough which translates into me being especially picked on !
i was flying my drone at an open field at a park, in new york you're not supposed to fly drones in parks but i think as long as you're respectful you won't get bothered
well, i'm flying the drone and focused when i hear someone say something behind me and i look around to see a man and his son making me crash land the drone with it ending up upside down
well they're just standing five feet away from me and my whole face is covered with a neckie and a winter hat, so i'm just staring at them for several seconds without them saying anything and i say " how do you do ? "
he says they just find it interesting so i said " okay just be careful because i'm new "
and he said how it was impressing and how he goes to best buy and they're expensive and they have all these features, he says how planes need to land like drones
so i keep flying some more until the battery runs out and i begin to walk back to my car, i see a vision of a big drone flying through the sky being controlled by a small black silhouetted person, then i " get out " of the vision and a rhyming homily comes to me, but i didn't write it down so i forgot and it's another piece of writing gone forever ..
wow, some people can be so quick with sleight of hand !
i was thinking of playing poker for money but i don't think so anymore !
sometimes i get advice and i just scoff
then i look back some time in the future and i think
well that was actually good advice
a couple walking down the trail towards me
the man asks, " did you see anything good ? "
i say " uhh, yeah "
he's holding a camera and says "any seals ? "
" uhh, no "
the woman laughs
there are probably few people who love the internet as much as i do
walking through a drab grocery store
going to the register to get out of there when i hear a worker joking with his coworkers, then as he's walking away he sends more jokes to other coworkers
why does it surprise me so little when i see the most affable person there is mopping the floors ?
andrew writes :
jason, there’s a huge energy in not having a girlfriend, you have the focus and undistracted attention to do things !
my reply :
i like to tell people i have more important things to focus on than girls, except i'm not really doing them
it's hard to be in poverty, especially when you have a wife or kids
i think cryptocurrency is interesting and i can see myself getting into it, i just need to set aside the things i'm focusing on which aren't gaining me money
a good description by andrew
an enlightenment experience is where everything turns inside out and you see that reality is a world within a world and not the true world
i email scotty kilmer telling him how my first used car buying experience went :
i'd like to tell you how buying a used car for the first time went for me
of course i did not know this when buying the car, only when i was test driving the vehicle and he was in the passenger seat and i let go of the steering wheel for it to veer left did he mention " oh it's been in an accident, it was nothing really i was going 35mph and hit a deer "
the whole time he played off that it was his own car since he bought it new and that the accident was very minor, and if you check the original ad ( here's a link to an album i made of the original ad : https://imgur.com/a/340lN ), the ad states the car is " clean "
only after signing the title and trying to register the car at motor vehicles did i realize something was amiss, after i bought a carfax and saw that the car was totaled and that it now stated it had 200,000k miles instead of the 58,000k the seller was advertising .. still not sure if there was an engine swap or something
i rushed back to his house to get my money back but he said he spent it already. somehow he got the title to state one owner, don't know how. he also folded the title perfectly over where the it states the car's condition as "SALVAGE/REBUILT "
the man was a professional criminal and i just happened to be one of his victims. he was almost hypnotic and i got unlucky
what i learned from this encounter was to take more time buying a used car, to be very wary of car's being advertised without a license plate, and that craigslist and facebook marketplaces are full of dealers, ex dealers, and wannabe dealers
luckily the car has been doing pretty well, i haven't had a problem with it since i've been using it for about four months, and i was even doing some pizza delivery with the car
comparatively i was comfortable at this zen center because it's in my home state and even on my home island
growing up and going to portugal every year i think i developed a good sense of how cultures can differ. even with a four hour car drive from here to cambridge zen center i could see a difference
the resident who i spoke to lives in the center but goes to manhattan where he works. the center encourages the residents to take up art practice and so he decided to write poetry and take photographs, he was even familiar with hakuin
in that year i read the lion the witch and the wardrobe which is a narnia book and almost my whole class was enamored by the book, we had a good time reading it
we'd each take a certain character and read their lines while our teacher would narrate, and we'd make the desserts mentioned in the book too
that year i really started liking girls as i got close to my friend christine
that really pretty girl brooke, the one with the rich boyfriend and is traveling, was also in the class. i have a specific memory where i impersonated an australian accent to her as we were lining up to go somewhere, and she asked " how did you do that ? " i said " i don't know ! " and maybe something else, and she said " don't be so modest ! " .. i used to watch a lot of steve irwin
if i eat meat less than three times a week i start to lack energy
my friend in a groupchart starts telling about how his girlfriend will occasionally talk to her her ex boyfriend and he's getting angry
i say :
if she's a good girl she'll dump you before cheating on you
he responds with a couple laughing emojis and then says :
what if she's a bad girl ?
i respond :
she'll cheat on you and give you an std, now that's not very funny
my father brought up to my godparents that i was offered a job at home depot and i declined it, i said it was because i'd be working right next to the expressway all day and they just all immediately laughed
i didn't explain myself right then but then when i was in the car with my father i asked him seriously if he thought working next to the highway wouldnt have negative health consequences and he said i was just saying that as " an excuse "
then we went to someone's house and there were younger women there and he said to one almost right away " look here at my son, are you looking for a boyfriend ? " then he said " oh shit your boyfriend is here i shouldn't speak ", which he was
then later on he said to another " listen here he's looking for a girlfriend, he's 23 ! " and she said " and what ? " and he said " well i don't know if he's a good guy or not, but he would be if he takes after his father "
yeah they found me good looking or maybe they looked at me that way cuz you don't see too many people from out of town
i was on my way home from my father's wife's house after lunch with my father in the passenger seat
there were two women on the side of the road who waved at us and my father said " pull over they need something '
so i pulled over and it was an older woman and a younger one and i recognized that they were " ciganos ", the portuguese word for gypsies
so they come to the driver window which was down and they asked if they could get a ride to town and my father replied that they could
so they got into the backseat both in the same seat behind me at first and they smelled of body odor like they had been without a bath and walking for a long time
my father asks where they're from and they say ' here ' and my father starts asking what's the name of the town and they don't respond by keeping silent after a couple previous questions
then they say that i'm handsome a couple of times and the third time i say " thanks ( in portuguese ) " and my father starts telling them that i'm american and the girl squeezes my shoulder and pinches the back of my arm
the younger one asks what i'm doing later and besides saying thanks i haven't said a word and continue not to, they say a couple more things and my father says " not today "
we get to the center of town and i stop and they start asking " do you want to fuck ? do you want a suck ? " while i continue to remain silent and my father keeps saying no, reluctantly
they ask if they can get dropped off a little more down the hill as my father has given away we live in that direction, i stop again down the hill and they ask for money to eat and so my father gives them five euros and again they ask to fuck. i don't respond and they start asking me if i like women and i just don't respond
they ask to be dropped off more down the road and now we are at a park near my house and my father says they'll find someone here who is interested but they at first won't leave the car and my father tells them to get out of the car
the older woman does get out after being asked some times and comes to my driver winder and asks again and i say " truthfully, no ", the younger girl has the door open on the back passenger side and is playfully shaking my father back and forth and giving him pats and even reclines his seat back while my father laughs
after some time my father says just start driving as the younger girl still has one foot in the car and is asking for our phone numbers to call us later " to talk ", my father pauses for several seconds to think if he will give her his number while side glancing me, he gives away that we live down the road and i start to let go of the brake and the girl exits the car
i can't remember what their faces looked like because i was avoiding looking at them, it was also a day i forgot to bring my knife with me
maybe in a different time, if i was by myself or with someone not my father, i might've said yes, but with STDs being so rampant i didn't consider it
the person i lie to most is myself
i've never had a good persimmon before but i learned today they have to be so ripe that the skin splits
supermarkets usually pick the fruit before ripe to avoid spoiling, like it's hard to find a ripe pineapple
if i have any kind of smarts it's not the kind that makes life easy